As I am writing this post, tears pour down my face.  The Lord is taking me through an emotional healing process from my cancer journey from 3 years ago.   The other day I took my dogs on a beautiful trail near my house.  As we were running, a flashback from 3 years ago came rushing back to my mind.  I remembered how I felt walking that trail 3 years earlier while I was going through chemotherapy.  I’ll never forget thinking, “this cancer is never going to end” and asking God why I had been dealt the cancer card?  Little did I know what was getting ready to happen to me physically, mentally and spiritually within the days ahead!  On September 29, 2009 I was hospitalized and put into a coma.  I have to say, my life has never been the same since that day.

Something I noticed while I was on the trail a few days ago was how the light from the sun would shine so bright that I could barely see anything in front of me.  I knew if I would continue moving forward and take a few more steps I would be able to see clearly again.  I couldn’t help but think how that related so well to my entire cancer journey, as well as the call God has placed on my life.  The Lord has spoken clearly to my heart and said that I am to share His story in my life to women all over the world, but that means I have to continue taking steps forward in the blinding bright light of His love, even when I cannot see the end result.  To be honest with you, that scares me to death!  I believe God can use all things for His glory, but that means I have to be willing to let go of ALL things in order for God to show off in my life.

What I’m writing about today goes hand and hand with Pastor Steven Furtick’s new book and sermon series Greater.  I highly recommend listing to his sermon from this week, Burning the Plow.  On page 45 of his book Greater, Pastor Steven says, “If you’re going to walk by faith and trust in your Father and if you’re going to see your life set free from the tyranny of the ordinary, you’re going to have to learn how to obey God who doesn’t do details.”  This means that I might not ever know God’s exact plan, but I must obey His call for my life.

I believe my life will always be God’s story because He is the author, not Me.  However, I am willing to let God continue to write his story on my heart and then share that message with others.  There is something to be said about surrender….a sense of True Freedom that God can only provide.  Tell me, are you willing to obey God’s call even if you do not know all the details?  I would love to hear from you!