I had a dear friend commit suicide last week.  This special lady fought breast cancer with me, while I fought Lymphoma.  I cannot help but question God why we were in each other’s lives fighting so hard to stay alive and now within seconds she took her very own life.  My heart is broken in a million pieces for her and all the loved ones she left behind.  I keep saying to myself over and over if I had only said this or done that maybe she would still be here with us.  God keeps reminding me over and over that I am not in control or responsible for other people’s actions, however I am in control and responsible for my own.

After going through so much with my own personal battle to stay alive, I am amazed at how I have a newer brighter perspective on my life from this tragedy.  God is once again revealing to me how very important it is to live one day at a time and embrace each day as if it were my last.  All of a sudden I have a deeper desire to stay connected and in the present moment with my husband and daughter like never before.  I am determined to share Christ with others and tell them about how he has removed the chains of condemnation from my life.  I don’t want to waste a single second living in past regrets and failures.  I want to love and embrace everyone through the eyes of Christ.

Life is too short for judging or second-guessing who I am and why I am here.  To Honor my friend’s life today I am fully embracing that I am the daughter of the most High King, Jesus Christ and I will not stop sharing the love of Christ with others until the last breath I take on this earth.  Thank you Lord Jesus for taking our deepest heartaches and turning them into hope and a future in your ever-lasting arms.  My prayer today is for ALL people who are struggling with despair and wanting to end their lives.  May God rescue them today.