I messed up. I mean really really messed up.
It’s one of those times when I took a long hard look at myself and saw my outright mess, rebellion and disobedience staring me face to face. How could I let it get to this point I ask myself?
Regret, shame, guilt, condemnation weighed heavy on my mind.
Ugh.
Can you relate? Have you ever had these same thoughts and feelings?
What do you do when you struggle with these kinds of emotions? Feelings that tell you how awful you are? Do agree with them? Do you have strength to fight them off? If you agree with these demeaning feelings, you’re only going to sink deeper and deeper in the pit of shame. But how in the world do you not allow these thoughts and feelings to control you?
This whole “feelings battle” is something that we will deal with our entire life. It is a war that never goes away and that is why we must learn how to fight it. To know how to fight effectively to win a battle it takes training. Also knowing the opponent you are fighting is key. It is when we don’t know who we are fighting that we are in great danger.
Recently after engaging with this “feelings battle” yet again, I found myself sinking quickly into that pit of shame. In the midst of all my emotions I allowed myself to wallow in them. I knew it was not a good place to be. After about 48 hours of letting myself agree with my feelings and sink deeper into the pit, I noticed even while in my misery I was still putting one foot in front of the other the whole time. I was fighting the battle even though I felt like I was falling deeper.
How was I actually fighting? I kept pursuing God through His word. It was not easy, and I did not immediately “feel” better. I still felt a heaviness of regret and shame through the process. But I did not quit. As I continued moving forward while feeling weighed down, God began showing me clearly, He was here with me every step of the way.
Text message, after text message were unexpectedly popping up left and right. Friends, mentors, clients, and even strangers were speaking life into me. They were speaking the very words of God to me to remind me that God loved me, and He was proud of me. God showed me through them that He was still using me for His divine purpose even in the middle of my mess. He showed me that His grace and forgiveness was irrevocable. That is what the blood covenant is all about.
Dear reader, I share this with you today to first encourage you. Don’t give up on yourself. God loves you and He will never reject you or give up on you. Extend the same love and grace to yourself as He does. Secondly, always remember you are in a battle and the enemy is sneaky trying to still your joy. Do not give him a foothold. Continue to fill your mind with truth every single day. READ THE BIBLE. Find ways to incorporate more scripture throughout your day. For example, download a bible app such as YouVersion on your phone that will notify you with a scripture verse for the day or place scripture around your home. Building a stronger intimate relationship with Christ doesn’t come by chance, it takes intention, but the rewards are far greater than anything you can dare to ask or imagine.
TAKE ACTION: Take the next 5 minutes to add scripture to your life. Place scripture around your home, download a Bible App or replace your phone screen saver with a verse. It’s the little things that will help you renew your mind and create deeper intimacy with Christ.
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